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the art of weight loss.

let the journey begin… again.

All my life I’ve struggled with my weight. It has affected all aspects of my life from my self-esteem to my confidence and even my day-to-day life. I remember not wanting to eat in the school cafeteria because I felt like everyone was watching me. My body became my prison. I constantly nit-picked and degraded myself.

Why am I telling you all this? Well, one, it’s my blog. I can ramble about anything on my mind. And, two, it’s because I’m back on the train to lose some weight. I’m back to the yoyo-ing and I’m up again. I gained during college, lost it all, and gained it back again now. All the date nights, evenings out to the bar, and dinners with family have caused me to gain again. Although less than I did before.

I’m sick of yoyo-ing and hating myself. I’m over not liking my body in photos and opting to stay in instead of going out with friends. This doesn’t mean that I’m not going to try to lose; It just means that I’m going to try to not hate myself in the process. I’m adopting a new way of thinking.

I am where I am. I can change, and do better tomorrow. I am enough.

This is so new for me. I’ve tried this mindset before, but I’ve ended up at the end of the day hating my body. I need to change that. I can’t keep the same mindset and think the end result will change. I’m 22 years old. It’s time I step into my power and become the woman I was meant to be.

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I love the phrase “body under construction”. That’s where I’m at right now. Under construction. I have time, and I can make the right decisions to get where I want to be at the end of the day. And that’s why I’m writing here. I want to bring you on the path to my weight loss – to being healthier. I want to keep a record of how I’m feeling and my ups and downs. Most weight loss influencers don’t tell you about the struggle. They ignore it, or they give an idealized version.

It’s a struggle. It hurts. It’s sacrifice. I want people who are also going on this journey to find consolation in my observations and comments. I know the struggle and problem with trying to lose weight in our current society. I’m hoping that documenting my journey will help me and hopefully someone else.

Today’s plan: a walk around the neighborhood with the dog, and a yoga video from Youtube.

Let’s start this journey and begin together. I’ll make posts on occasion with my progress and thoughts while also writing about my life. If you are starting like me, or on your own journey, let me know in the comments. Let’s build this community and help each other out. I hope you all have a great day where ever you are.

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One Month into 2022 Updates

insights to the new year so far

Hello again, Internet. It’s been a wild last two months. A lot has happened. Some good, some in between, and some new things yet to come.

The Good

I officially moved into my boyfriend! It’s official! After nearly a year of long-distance commutes and late-night talks, we are finally under the same roof. It still feels like a dream. We get to wake up together and snuggle up every night. He is my cuddle bear through and through. Oddly enough – he is also my first boyfriend. I feel like I’m in a dream.

For the longest time, I didn’t think I would find anyone I truly click with. When we met, I had practically given up. Of course, that is when we met. Call it fate or what have you, but at the end of the day I have a hand to hold, and someone to help me deal with the stresses of life. I can only hope for the future that is on the way.

Some In-Between

The in-between of this adventure is that it is very difficult to find a good place to truly call home. We’ve been on the hunt for a while, and although we have a place to stay now. It would be nice to have a place to truly call our own.

The problem is that the market is out of control. I’m not sure if any of you have to deal with the housing market in Florida, but I cannot believe how crazy things have gotten. The roads are overfilled. Rush hour lasts nearly three times as long as it did only a year ago. Gas prices soaring. And the worst part? It’s probably going to get worse.

I am a newly graduated college student still finding my way in the world. How am I supposed to afford a $1,800 a month lease? And that’s for a studio. Even split in between two people – that’s still $900 a month. I’m all for a supply and demand economy, but there comes a point where something has to give.

I want to note here that I am in no way an economist or anyway an expert in the way housing markets operate, but I sense a disaster on the way.

I was a little girl in the crash of 2008. I remember my parents leaning over the dining room table discussing bills and what to do next. I remember the stress, worry, and fear that things might get worse. I’m fearful that something worse than 2008 is on its way.

I guess only time will tell on this one. I just hope we will be able to find somewhere cheaper to go to sooner than later.

Some New Things Yet To Come

This year marked the beginning of my journey to finding a career. Something that I like and can do for a while. My first idea so far has been teaching. I know that there is a huge shortage of teachers right now, and I know I can at least help the cause by substitute teaching for the remainder of the school year.

So, that’s what I did. I’ve so far taught in two schools and two wildly different age levels and learning levels. At the moment I think I like elementary better, but only time will tell where I think I can fit in the best. But I am hopeful that the little kiddos maybe my spot – at least for now. I already have a few more days scheduled for next week, and I’ll be tracking progress here.

I’m hopeful that perhaps someone else that is interested in teaching will read my journey and find out if it is for them.

For now, that is the major update. I’ll be writing again I’m sure soon. So till then, thank a teacher and let me know what your favorite subject is/was in school. Mine was English.