let the journey begin… again.
All my life I’ve struggled with my weight. It has affected all aspects of my life from my self-esteem to my confidence and even my day-to-day life. I remember not wanting to eat in the school cafeteria because I felt like everyone was watching me. My body became my prison. I constantly nit-picked and degraded myself.
Why am I telling you all this? Well, one, it’s my blog. I can ramble about anything on my mind. And, two, it’s because I’m back on the train to lose some weight. I’m back to the yoyo-ing and I’m up again. I gained during college, lost it all, and gained it back again now. All the date nights, evenings out to the bar, and dinners with family have caused me to gain again. Although less than I did before.
I’m sick of yoyo-ing and hating myself. I’m over not liking my body in photos and opting to stay in instead of going out with friends. This doesn’t mean that I’m not going to try to lose; It just means that I’m going to try to not hate myself in the process. I’m adopting a new way of thinking.
I am where I am. I can change, and do better tomorrow. I am enough.
This is so new for me. I’ve tried this mindset before, but I’ve ended up at the end of the day hating my body. I need to change that. I can’t keep the same mindset and think the end result will change. I’m 22 years old. It’s time I step into my power and become the woman I was meant to be.
I love the phrase “body under construction”. That’s where I’m at right now. Under construction. I have time, and I can make the right decisions to get where I want to be at the end of the day. And that’s why I’m writing here. I want to bring you on the path to my weight loss – to being healthier. I want to keep a record of how I’m feeling and my ups and downs. Most weight loss influencers don’t tell you about the struggle. They ignore it, or they give an idealized version.
It’s a struggle. It hurts. It’s sacrifice. I want people who are also going on this journey to find consolation in my observations and comments. I know the struggle and problem with trying to lose weight in our current society. I’m hoping that documenting my journey will help me and hopefully someone else.
Today’s plan: a walk around the neighborhood with the dog, and a yoga video from Youtube.
Let’s start this journey and begin together. I’ll make posts on occasion with my progress and thoughts while also writing about my life. If you are starting like me, or on your own journey, let me know in the comments. Let’s build this community and help each other out. I hope you all have a great day where ever you are.